(Tell me that you weren't just singing... haha)
And just like that, after a two week hiatus, I've come home to you! And it feels rather nice. So to catch up, I'm gonna let you I'm on some things... and then break it all down currently style.
one | My grandmother had surgery to remove the breast cancer last month and I still haven't recovered from the stress and anxiety of it all. But she was given the all clear from the doc, meaning they got all of the cancer, and she starts radiation at the beginning of September.
two | Then there is the anxiety with what is going on with the dog... every time he refuses to eat or drink immediately after I fill his bowls, I feel an overwhelming need to breakdown and cry, because in my head I know that I need to make the decision to let him go. And well, my heart is overruling my head in almost every debate at this point. It really didn't help that last month, my Aunt told me that I needed to put him down because it wasn't nice to put him through the pain of draining and filling up and being overall uncomfortable. I know she's right, but I just can't bring myself to make a decision just yet. Especially since it seems like the water pills are starting to help. Which makes my decision even harder. *For more info on what I am blabbering on about, read here.
three | I've had a nice little sinus thing going on for about a month now... so after coughing all over the kiddies at work, I spent two freaking hours in urgent care for them to tell me I have bronchitis. Joy! I'm starting to feel better, but honestly, I really don't think it's bronchitis.
four | My bestie came in this past weekend and I can't tell you how much of a fresh breath of air it was to see her. And actually talk to her in person. I'm planning a trip to go see her before my birthday, but it sucks we really only see each other like twice a year. *oh btw, the bestie taught me how to fishtail braid and I'm awesome at it!
five | A lil currently action:
R e a d i n g | A Time to Kill by John Grisham. I was looking for a book at work to read for quite reading (I work in a JDC and they run it like a school setting M-F) and came across A Time to Kill. I had seen the movie years ago, but the book is rather eye opening.
W r i t i n g | The other night I had a dream and as soon as I woke up, I knew I wanted to write a novel about the basis of my dream. I have always wanted to be a writer (maybe that's why I blog), and hopefully I can find the time to actually sit down and write it.
L i s t e n i n g | to my new Luke Bryan CD on repeat.
T h i n k i n g | about what I am going to post this week... I have my Internet through my cell provider, so when my data gets low, I stop blogging... and then draft posts in MS word. I have five sitting on deck right now!
W i s h i n g | that for once my head and my heart could be on the same page. I am really not a fan with the whole being at war with myself.
H o p i n g | for a miracle. I know it's a long shot, but miracles happen, right?
S m e l l i n g | nothing... due to my sinus issues, nothing smells or tastes right.
W e a r i n g | Butter London Horse Power Nail Fertilizer. Seriously amazing.
L o v i n g | The new James Patterson show on Tuesday nights on CBS... it's called Zoo :)
W a n t i n g | to curl up in bed and hide under the covers... being an adult sucks sometimes. I could also go for a nap and a bath... just not in that order.
N e e d i n g | a relaxing spa day that includes a mani/pedi & hair cut.
F e e l i n g | like a bipolar freak... at one minute I want to bawl my eyes out, in another minute I want to sing karaoke at the top of my lungs, in another I am looking in the mirror and smiling because I think I look amazing.
M i s s i n g | being a stay-at-home mom. Don't get me wrong, I love my job and I love the money, but I really miss spending the day in the pool with Lil Man, or going shopping, or just laying on the couch, or even doing laundry and cleaning my house. Yep... never thought I would say that last part...
So how have you been? I'm excited to see all your faces again!!