Confession: I'm really not into the Holiday spirit

In a nutshell, I have been feeling kinda down lately. Especially with the holidays. 

Last year at this time, I had already taken my son to go see the big man in red, had most of my presents bought, was on the way to sending out my Christmas cards, and of course, already had decorated the house. 

At this moment in time, I have only done two of those things. 
And I am not sure if I have a need the other ones.

Well, of course, I did take my son to see Santa and I have bought Christmas presents for my family and friends, but I don't really want to decorate or send out Christmas cards.

Why? Because I'm not really into the Holiday spirit.

Most of the reasons that I have been so down stem from the big move in June and my car accident in August. 
We are currently living in my parents' basement. We had issues at our last residence and since I was starting a new full-time job, we decided to live with my parents. They welcomed us with somewhat open arms, and since we are actually helping them with the bills every month, they are happy with us being here. It's not ideal, but we are comfortable and making the best of it. 
I am still experiencing pain from my car accident. At the time of publishing, I have been out of physical therapy for a month, due to insurance issues, and I am in constant pain. I have a headache all of the time- it varies in intensity, but it's always there; and I am only working part time at work, due to cognitive issues.

Another slice of the issues can be attributed to the depressive episode that currently negates my life. About this time last year, I reached out to my GYN to help with my depression. I wasn't feeling like myself, and since I was going in for my yearly, I asked. He put me on a medication, and it helped. Somewhat. The past year has been a roller coaster to say the least. In November, I finally had enough crying, bad thoughts, and feeling down, so I went to see a Psych doc. She opened my eyes, told me that I actually didn't have depression, but I had Bipolar II and I was in a depressive episode. She also diagnosed me with OCD, ADD, and Anxiety, but that's for a different post. I am currently on meds to help with the episode, but it's too early to tell if they are going to help.

I just don't feel the need to send out Christmas cards or decorate for all of those reasons. Well, and the fact that the majority of my decorations are in storage right now. The hubby did go and get a small table top tree and some ornaments for me, but other than that, I don't even want to hang stockings. Hell, I don't even want any Christmas presents.

I think I may take a break from blogging for the holidays. If you have been an avid reader, you shouldn't be surprised at this. Of course, I will still be around on Snapchat & Insta- tl_tinywishes, and Facebook.

I do have some pretty neat-o things planned for the new year: think more posts, more vlogging, more awesomeness. But right now, the whole not being into the holiday spirit has kinda gotten me down. AND in reality I can't concentrate. So, I will see you all in 2018, and you better be ready, cause I will be coming out with a BANG!

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